i've read this story on the internet, it touched me and made me wonder will i do it to my loved ones if it ever occurs on me...well, as a matter of fact, i will, as i don't really care about myself, i definitely think that everyone around me is worth living more than me...so..i'll definitely do it!!

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a  hospital, I got
to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare and serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister.I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes, I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and  smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling  voice, "Will I start to die right away?" Being young, the little boy had misunderstood&nb sp;the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her. Yet he was willing.

classes started last week, was rather scary coz our lecturers were like putting so much pressure on us as they've implemented a new system on our final year project. The couple of years earlier, all our seniors need to do is just one major project that will go on for the entire final 2 trimester, but now, we'll have to complete our thesis and a minor FYP project within 2 months, sounds pretty impossible to me, especially the research and techincal part that we'll need to go through, devastating definitely!! my proposal was rejected first time in my entire studying life, they're like "owh...you've got a great idea, but we need a basis on it!" , then it's thinking and thinking non-stop within 3 hours to figure out what kinda basis they actually want. Damn !! Good & Evil !! Digital Art !! is all about art, and art's absolutely abstract, is all about me !!! what i think !! what i say !! and they're like again "owh...is not good enough, you're not someone important, people don't care how you think !!" Oh great, now tell me about it, i'm not important?? in my world, i'm the centre of the universe, and that's what i'm trying to tell through good and evil, that everyone has their own definition of good and evil. if you think what you do is good, then it's good ; and if you think what you do is evil, then it'll be evil. is just as simple as that, why do my lecturers like to complicate things so much?? Damn !! then now, all i can think of is...humanism, theism, polytheism, reliasm, surrealism, existentialism, dualism....etc. i'm a bit scared that my mind will go cuckoo because of this project...and the worst part is that my lecturer told me  i'll either excel or fail in it, great....that really lightens up my day a lot!! Ha, whatever, i don't care, just do my best and let it be!!

money...everything in this world is about money!! No matter what kinda person you are, good...bad...it doesn't matter. As long as you can make sure there's like an awesome amount of cash in your account, you can do wonders. People would do anything for money...what's dignity??what's pride??what's humanity??Uh uh, those ain't important if you don't have money!i have friends whom sold themselves for money, thay've lost their pride and dignity for it. I told them it ain't right, but what i got back was "you were borned in a well-being family, you would never understand how important money is!We would sacrifice anything for it!As long as we can have a luxurious living and worryless life!!Who cares about other stuffs??" Craps!! of coz i understand how important money is, is just that i realise, there're other things in life worth sacrificing. Love is one thing money can never buy, people might adore you for being rich, but exactly how many will really get to know you deep down inside?? All that they're interested in is your glamorous appearence, you'll have lotsa friends, but as days are not always good, you might find them running away from you if you fall from the very top of your life!! Only those whom stood by you through good and bad times are the ones that loved you for who you are! The conversation with my friends ended rather unhappy as i disagree with their perspective. As a matter of fact, i do agree that money is important, but it's not until you have to exchange everything for it!! What's the point of being the richest person in the world when you have no one but blood sucking monsters around you? And yet, i have to respect their point of view as we grew up in different enviroments...well, someday they might learn that actually despite being rich, you'll need many more of other things to complete your life!

today's a great day...finally i managed to finish my internship report which is supposed to be done... somewhat 3 months ago??err... i have a tendency to procrastinate things..dilideli and take my own sweet time. And always be very panic at the very last moment, never did manage to learn my lesson. Well...but who cares, maybe someday i will or maybe i never will (if can is the best lar). Basically i'm just crapping here coz this little brain of mind is not really functioning most of the time, but i have tons of junks and bad ideas in it. Ask me if you're planning to make your friends or your family's life miserable, i'm definitely the person you wanna get some ideas from! My life's a mess, nothing was ever proper in it, but well...i kinda like it the way i am, coz i really really don't wanna crack my brain worrying about this. Ok, these are craps..cool craps....blogs are made for people to crap on it right?? So why make a fuss outta it?? Yeah!! Life's a bitch, so screw it before it screws you!!

if i die before i wake, at least in heaven (as if i'm qualified to go there)... i'll continue doing the things that i've always loved to do...as chinese believes that the dead ones are able to receive gifts from the mortal world!!! So..i shall leave a will to my family and friends..just a reminder so that they will burn all the stuffs that i might need in case i died in my dreams...well...let me see, there are quite many things in my list.

Firstly, i'll like dad to burn me a BMW M3...wuahahahaha..finally can own my dream car..but it's a little pathetic that i only get to own it after i die!! And then life will be great if there's a PS2 limited edition...ooo...sorry...my afterlife will be great...and also not forgetting a set of state of the art computer...29in flat screen monitor...AMD 3.2GHz proccesor...1.5Gb of RAM...256MB ATI Radeon 9800 graphic card...soundblaster audigy platinum sound card...250Gb of HDD...aiya...just gimme all the best things that can be found !! yea and also broadband, i wonder streamyx has service to heaven??then can chat with my family and frriends...can send them e-mails some more...SYOK!!!!

I think this is a really great story...for all those people out there who think that they're superior because of their skin color!!

This scene took place on a BA flight between Johannesburg and London. A white woman, about 50 years old, was seated next to a black man. Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air hostess "Madam, what is the matter," the hostess asked . "You obviously do not see it then?" she responded. "You placed me next to a black man. I do not agree to sit next to someone from such a repugnant group. Give me an alternative seat." "Be calm please," the hostess replied. "Almost all the places on this flight are taken. I will go to see if another place is available." The Hostess went away and then came back a few minutes later. "Madam, just as I thought, there are no other available seats in the economy class. I spoke to the captain and he informed me that there is also no seat in the business class. All the same, we still have one place in the first class." Before the woman could say anything, the hostess continued. "It is not usual for our company to permit someone from the economy class to sit in thefirst class. , However, given the circumstances, the captain feels that it would be scandalous to make someone sit next to someone sooooo disgusting."She turned to the black guy, and said, "Therefore, Sir, if you would liketo, please collect your hand luggage, a seat awaits you in first class." At that moment, the other passengers who were shocked by what they had just witnessed stood up and applauded.

Walking down this not long but definitely winding road, I… finally realize that I don't actually know what love is. From the day that I met you, I thought that I've found the ticket to happiness, but it eventually turned out to be the prison that broke my wings to fly. Three long years has passed, I was so trapped within the cocoon that was far beyond my ability to break through, I wandered in a long and seemed everlasting torment whereby I then became so exhausted and tired of it. The only thing that I could cling on to was endless alcohol to make myself numb so that my brain would not remind me of you. I walked slowly….slowly to an unknown future….