the song "beautiful" is playing on my winamp now...this is a song that has touched me the most through out the years...i've had my worst moments in life which i thought that i would never make it through...as silly as i could remember..things were very much outta control back then...i care too much about how people think of me...i care too much about what people want from me...ultimately..i forgot...that i myself is the most important...i was often brought down by the words of others...telling me what i should do and what i shouldn't do...i shall not bear that anymore in my life...i'll do whatever i want...whenever i want...with whomever i want..being able to be myself won't be easy...as i'm surrounded by so many people...different kind of people...from now..i'll only please those whom i think are worth it..the rest??fuck it...that's what i'm gonna be...be prepared for the new me...

" I AM BEAUTIFUL, NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY, NO WORDS CAN BRING ME DOWN ! I AM BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY SINGLE WAY, NO WORDS CAN BRING ME DOWN ! "

this fever just refuse to leave me alone...maybe for one day...but then it will come back again...come on man...what's d point??just let me die of fever and end of the story...this is endless torment!!sigh~

i should quit smoking...coz i don't have an ashtray...what d hell??smoking kills..damn..need to go get another ciggie..sigh~i'm hopeless

this morning was pretty sucky...i was driving as usual..on my way to the office..finally..after struggling through the horibble jam that i'll have to go through every morning...i arrive my office in one piece..yet...the tragedy was there..waiting for my arrival..a merc benz S class with twin pipe driven by someone i conclude as a high-class ah beng refuse to let me go into his lane while i found out the lane that i was in had some problem moving forward...as in procedure..i gave my freakin' signal before turning in...but he honked at me so loud that i thought my ears were gonna burst into pieces!!so i'll have to give in to him as his car is obviously bigger than mine..sigh~~
i thought that this is end of the story...who knows as i drove on and found out that the merc was just right in front of me and blocking my way...i don't know what is he trying to do..so i waited patiently...and then all of a sudden...he reversed and parked into an illegal parking space..man...phew...thought that he was gonna knock on my car...when i drove passed him...he gave me a nother freakin' loud honk and show me his middle finger...gee...from someone driving a merc S class..hard to believe...and that moment..i had the urge to just stop my car and confront him...damn...he's really some rich barbarian...ergh~~one of these days..i'll be rich like him..maybe richer than him..and i'll have my revenge!!!

my blog's spinning webs..gotta update it..that's what i've been saying to myself every morning when i step into the office..but eventually..something elses will pop up and i'll totally forgot about my blog...finally..this morning...with flamming determination...i ignored everything else...fingers on my keyboard firmly to produce this crap out...
apparently my previous blog,which was dated 7th of june 2005 10.31am with the title proton & perodua was considered a rather lame story from my frequent blog readers...sigh~~i'm just telling the truth..that's the scenario currently..especially with the new proton savvy and perodua myvi out to monopolize the mini SUV market...man...getz..jazz and aveo stands a pretty hard chance...despite that if you have extra money to spend on and looking for something more luxurious...as a matter of fact...when it comes to luxury..i think myvi pretty fits in that category...with its dual SRA airbags and also the ABS system...well..what more can you ask for with a mere RM45,000??and if i'm not mistaken...i've read in the chinese newspaper recently about the an advertisement showing how tough a car is...well..the press considered it rather exaggerating...well...the name of that particular car wasn't mentioned but as a frequent tv couch patato..i know exactly which one they are mentioning...haha...anyways...enough of car talks...otherwise..doreen and winnie will be sleeping while browsing through my blog...so..let's talk about...ermmm....ermmm...ermmm...well..come to think about it...i don't know what else to talk about...found a new website online..nice and smooth animation...like it.. http://www.aardman.com" title="http://www.aardman.com" target="_blank"http://www.aardman.com  check it out...